Time is that thing that we all know is precious. We learn about it, we study it, we cliche the shit out of it. Time is money. Time flies. Don’t waste it. Time, time, time. Sometimes no one has it. Everyone wants more of it. And some of us have too much of it on our hands.
But have you ever really stopped to think about it? To feel seconds passing, not the sound of the clock ticking, but the actual feeling of losing something every second you are alive; the tendrils of sand trickling out of that hourglass of our lives. Because if you sit and you stop from the push and pull of everyday life, and you feel that pressure of the universe moving away from your grip, you will feel the fear. Fear that you didn’t spend enough of that time with the right people, or at the right places, or for the right purposes. Fear that only gets stronger the more you realize you’ll never get back that time because it’s gone. It can’t be recycled or bought or controlled. Once it’s gone, it’s gone.
And yet, as overwhelming as this fear should be, so many of our reactions to it are underwhelming. We’re wasting time haphazardly, hardly even noticing it slip between our fingers. What eventually happens is that we’re faced with a time in which the clockwork of the world speeds up and you have less time than you thought. That is when we get all philosophical about it. But why? Why not put a some effort into it and be more considerate. We prepare for almost all things in life that are relatively insignificant and we worry about them to our dying days. But we don’t put effort to prepare to spend time with the people and at the places we love until it’s too late and we’ve lost them.
What will you do when you run out of time? Turn back the clock? You might be able to turn back the hands of a clock but that doesn’t mean it’s the right time. You’re just fooling yourself. So what will you do? What will you do when you lose what has been in constant abundance that you never even doubted that it would end? How will you get back those precious seconds, minutes, hours? The real question is, how CAN you get it back? And the real answer is, well you can’t.
All you really can do is regret. And that is the most irritating, burdensome, and uncomfortable feeling of them all.
All you need to do is to take a little time to make things right and do right with the people that surround you before you can’t anymore. That’s the difference between the hourglass and life. You can flip the hourglass over and the time will go right back.
But in life, the wind catches the grains of sand and sends it off into the universe, never to be seen again.
Published in Mish Jareedi May 2013 Printed Edition – click here to view original publication